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OMG I'VE ALMOST FINISHED MY TITLELESS STORY

OMG IT'S GONNA BE SO GREAT

I plan to type it up and edit it and all that jazz, probably not until after christmas, when I get my laptop, I must look for a cheaper one, I don't think 2000 is gonna fly with my dear daddio. Who I'm not hating actually, I think I've come to accept him for all his short comings. I think this may be part of growing up though my sister doesn't seem to be on the bandwagon, but she has always been younger than me in all ways except physically. SCHOOL sucks, I flopped a few thinkgs, going down a spiral but hey WRITING nothing matters anymore, endophine high. I'm losing weight too, everyone says so, I'm going to actually exercise after this, as soon as my music gets done loading in nerdfighters. Ver just sent me a DaisyOwl comic FUNNY WEB COMIC Ver and me are going to move in together, down in Muncie indiana, because we're gonna go to ballstate. I'm not sure though, all my instincts are screaming ABANDON SHIP this country is so shitty right now, if there is going to be a great depression I'm going to do it in European beauty

BUT NO MATTER because WRITING

OMG NERDFIGHTERS

LOVE IT

though i haven't seen any of the videos yet, I like the concept, and I girlified my profile and don't care what anyone thinks about it. Maybe I should start another blog over there, one people can see who knows?

Till Next, yours

Oh yeah, the good news

Chibi lost her internet, didn't lose me. She's been sneaking on school computers to send me her sporatic messages <3333. I miss her so much, I'm to pathetic to make new friends. Infact I'm thinking of transfering mid year, if all my credits can come with me. I must remember to investigate.
I also helped dad set up for the Irish fest yesterday, which was fun and since it was all construction workers, they didn't bother having any beverages other than beer, so I snuck a can.
I'm catching up on sleep, but I'm not cleanign like I should, and tomorrow is our last day off. Oh well. It doesn't matter anyway.

Been aways a few days

Okay,. overload and undertow time. So much shit to do I feel like giving up. US and Lang is still ages behind and we have to do an oral report on Thoreau. *shudders* I'm so scared, I haven't read him and I don't want to talk 10minutes about anything. US I feel like I have a chance. Not Lang. I've had a cold for awhile, my chest is still tight, though no more sniffles. I babysat Patricia's kid. She has menstrual cycles, despite never mentally aging pass the age of 3. Guess who got to change a pad? Ugh. At least I'm being paid more than 5 bucks a sitting. Now it's five bucks an hour. Bobby and Bree look heavenly now. I take back every negative thought I had aobut them. I'm suppose to babysit Pat's kid again next week. But hey money. I pray for sanity. I can't lose it now. I was doing so well.

Greek Festival

Me and Dad went to the Greek Festival. He started out the day really shitty, but perked up when he saw Jennie Devoe playing at the Airport thing we had to go to. He then went to the greek festival in High Spirts and we danced a line dance and what not. Oh, and I ate fries.
I heard back from chibi, she got sore legs and a boyfriend offer, both of which she wants to do without. I plan on taking her to Oktober fest.
School sucked, surprised period resulted in pants change mid day. No one noticed. Tried to do a DVD got tired. Damn Cramps. I think the girls will be over this weekend.
Must remember to get: Journal, Suntan Lotion(going outside Thursday), Burn Murph a copy of Jenny Devoe, and email Devoe to have her come speak to orchestra class.
Day by Day Play by Play
Computers-good doing steadily
ALegbra--still hate it, doing okay, but as long as she keeps grading for accuracy before going over and teaching us the problems, I'm going to struggle
Frau-beautiful as always
history-miss most of it, Period Incident. And arrived in enough time to TAKE THE QUIZ
Enviro--cut and pastey goodness
Orchestra--Murph is getting on my nerves, music's not as important to me now.
English--falling behind again I NEED THE JOURNAL
Still in the downward spiral, but it's not as bad as it used to be, maybe I'm getting better?

I've decided to do the LJ secret thing

Truly living to the name

I've been in a Chibi dry spell, 13 days without contact ;____; either her internet died or she has found new friends. I hope it's the former, though I know it's bad of me. I'm a bit lonely now, and a little disinterested in the rest of the world. Chibi dissapearing was sort of the catalyst of emotions I've been feeling for awhile. They come and go, bringing the unfightable desire to sleep. I can stave it off sometimes, but when one thing goes wrong, it feels like I"m trapped in some sort of undertow. I rose above it a couple of days ago, I caught up on my Us history, got a 99 on my english homework, but now I'm behind on the english journals, and a worksheet in US and I'm back underwater. I'm scared when this happens, because the periods last so long and the happy moods come so far inbetween. I think Chibs might cheer me up a bit, fatty foods, movies, hanging out with someone who no matter how shitty her life is: divorce, constantly moving, family seperating, being cripplingly shy, poverty she is always so happy. So Half Full, no, All Full, for she only sees the good, even when I can't find a thing to look at. I need to be around such a positive person. And I miss her so.
Til next time