I've been in a Chibi dry spell, 13 days without contact ;____; either her internet died or she has found new friends. I hope it's the former, though I know it's bad of me. I'm a bit lonely now, and a little disinterested in the rest of the world. Chibi dissapearing was sort of the catalyst of emotions I've been feeling for awhile. They come and go, bringing the unfightable desire to sleep. I can stave it off sometimes, but when one thing goes wrong, it feels like I"m trapped in some sort of undertow. I rose above it a couple of days ago, I caught up on my Us history, got a 99 on my english homework, but now I'm behind on the english journals, and a worksheet in US and I'm back underwater. I'm scared when this happens, because the periods last so long and the happy moods come so far inbetween. I think Chibs might cheer me up a bit, fatty foods, movies, hanging out with someone who no matter how shitty her life is: divorce, constantly moving, family seperating, being cripplingly shy, poverty she is always so happy. So Half Full, no, All Full, for she only sees the good, even when I can't find a thing to look at. I need to be around such a positive person. And I miss her so.
Til next time
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