God I hate that place, one day I'll be free of it. It's just so fucking horrible, it's like being in a mall on the Saturday two weeks before Christmas, the halls are crowded, even the rooms are claustrophobic, and I just seem disportionate to the world around me, like Alice when she ate the cake (or drank the bottle?). I feel oddly depressed today as oppose to the happy go lucky girl I've been all break, school is the source of this I know. When I had the girls over this weekend, new years, for once I wasn't wishing they'd all leave, and I know it's because of my diet, the better foods didn't have me running to the restroom all the time, and I had more energy and just wanted to curl in a ball in sleep. The diet has diluted my depression, I'm healthier, and I'm losing weight and I know it's making me feel better, but school is my last obstacle, I don't know specifically what's making me hate it. It's a combination I supppose of things I hate: Large Crowds, Loud people, Superiority complex afflicted people, (teachers), work that only bores me. I can't stand to be treated like one in a heard of cattle, and I just have a feeling we're being herded into the slaughter, but no one seems to notice but me--it's something out of a 50/60 sci-fii novel, almost orwell. I haven't exercised yet, and i fell off my diet soon as i came home from school, stress eating mostly. I should of burned some CDs, and had a mini dance party, instead I went home, binged ate and fell asleep, I can be such a fuck up sometimes. But the day is not over yet (I still have a half hour) and I'm in the mood for some sit ups.
Back in the Game (hopefully)
Kelsey
PS: I don't htink burchfield has faith in me, little shit <3
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