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I kind of want to go to the groceries and buy some supplies for my new diet regim, also the new vouge that came out today. Alas, no money. I also want the Clip and a few other things, I can only hope for money this year, I should of made Kali buy me a year worths of subsricptions instead of that friggin mug. Oh well, at least the mug will have nostagia value, especially since I'm getting her the Jasmine Mug (I'm getting the Belle)
Still I want groceries, healthy snacks, I have a recipe for Honeycomb I want to do for christmas, and a few dinners I want for myself, sucks. But dad is weighing in at a whooping 242 pounds and maybe that'll make him sympathic to my cause. I know my desire to rid the entire house of junk food in a cleansing ceramonie involving mulitple trash bags and surpressed rage will probably never happen, and that my healthy lifestyle won't happen till I Move out but I still want to lose some weight, I should be getting mroe fucking support than this, but whatever. I'm over it, dad sounded skittish about letting me join Cardinels, I have no idea why. But fuck him, I just hope it'll get warmer so I can jog outside for awhile. Bring Kess, she looks starved for action.
When me and Veronica move in together--I have a feeling that she won't puss out, she's reliable in that way--I'll get a dog, I'm up in the air about it, because I have a love hate relationship with them, and we're already going to have two cats (kikyo's is her, and I plan on getting a russian blue or something similar) I want a Great Pyrness, or a New Foundland Shepard, maybe a Chow Chow or an Irish Wolfhound, something huge, but loveable (like me). But now I'm thinking along the lines of a great dane or a Dalmation, those things can run for days, (I do want to jog) and virtually hairless (making cleaning a non burden) If I get them in their puppy-hood and train them right I'm sure they'll be fine. Awesome even. I'll walk them two or three times a day, it'll be good to have that sort of responisbility. We're also planning on a garden, fresh healthy produce that I can cook, and then store for the winter. I'm planning on squash, peppers, strawberries, peas, and beans, maybe tomatos, celery and lettuce, carrots! For plants I want roses, all around the fence line, roses. I know ver has plans for other plants, but i also want a sunflower plant, god I love sunflowers. We're also planning on Herbs, lots of them, We won't even have to go to the produce section of the store, except for citrus frutis of coures, and ginger, which doesn't do well in this soil aparently. We also will have house plants, which will house our plants in winter, waiting for spring, as well as some house plants, like my vine, and maybe paper whites and zinnas. She wants a place for her bio-stuff, and a desktop of Horrors, full of carnivous plants, we'll have books shelves as room dividers, and paint the walls, I have no idea where the money is coming from, but it's so nice to dream. And i'll take the dog and jog every morning, go to class, go to work, then work in the garden all evening and during the weekends, intersperse with time at the gym and cook rich balanced meals for everyone. She'll go to class, study, work, and eat what I cook here, we'll live at half-price books and read and watch T.V. series and argue over food. We'll have so much fun, it'll be ridiculous. I can't wait for the day I'm out of this hell hole